Never the same again!

I built a fort

with forlorn keys 

I built it all around me

A desolate fort for a bleak soul 

In I stayed, in I reigned

A rule of quietness

A rule of emptiness

I thrived

My fort thrived 

Until I made a mistake

I broke my doors to let a lark in

I took its consent for granted

for I believed it liked my fort

I believed, it liked its stay

It stayed and it sung

I didn't care why the caged bird sang

I liked it singing 

to my black walls

I cried to its song

My lonely walls crumbled down to it

Everyday, every minute,

slab after a slab

I let the damn lark

crush my desolate fort down

Now it won’t sing anymore

I sit on the quiet rubble

I can not bear the silence

I let go of the lark

It was never meant to be mine

I let go of the lark

And I fall and fall 

into the debris of my fallen fort

This is where I belong

But I don’t find my place

This is where I belonged

But I lost my place

I fall and still fall

Because I can never fly with the lark

Nor can I build another fort

I lost it all

And,

falling into my loss is all I can do

- Gayathri Tamilselvan